Redefining Self

by Out of Place

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i continue to learn more about myself and the people around me. more and more i find things are not as i perceive them. a relationship build under the guise of secrets can never be a long lasting one. so what is left? what happens now? these are questions i often ask myself and some where in the music lies the answer. i've never been good with concept albums but i believe creating a vibe or mood as a concept is what i do best.
seems as though i always creep back to the lonely place i try so hard to free myself from. this time feel different, like i have a better understanding of what i should do for self. a new portrait unfolds to reveal truths i might have over looked.
Redefining Self deals with old and new relationships while learning how to understand the world around me.

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released April 23, 2018

album mixed & mastered by 247

lyrics by 247

track production by 247

album art by Julia Azarova
www.behance.net/azarowa

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Track Name: Both Feet In Motion
verse

it’s a fight to carry on
like the ending trying to creep a little closer
look over my shoulder
and notice nothing familiar
i feel a bit peculiar
life is losing its growth
my world crumbles around me like a delicate fold
trying to survive when i’m on the level of burly can hold
i’m a trader to my senses and it’s starting to show
the part of a martyr is old
and arguing garbage for gold
when i’m barely scraping pennies in my bartering mode
turning friends against me quickly without music to flow
what is life without another record pressing to mold
feeling depression but music is medicine for the soul
the only thing i get correct besides upsetting the role
feels like i’m ready to go
but yet i steady the road
though life's working against me i’m pursuing the goal
both feet in working motion steady ready for growth
life living by the pen keeping melody close


hook

got to let it all go to put myself together
the start of the ending and it’s only gaining pressure
live life to die even if it’s just the lessor
growth thru new experience
the only way to measure


verse 2

never knew i had a low point
till life knocked me on back
a few friends to help
but it’s hard to keep a steady track
running from the nothing as it changed the world around me
trying to breath in deeply though it feels like i’m drowning
the day mash together almost like it’s never ending
hard to feel and the loneliness has me descending
the only way i know to open up is write it down
my guiding light is sound
without it i wouldn’t be around
lost a love but i’m trying to gain from this perspective
life now is hectic
and hard to be effective
i’m nothing special just another lost inside the music
trying to find a way to cope
stay afloat for another note
without a boat it’s hard to see the bigger picture
the sandcastle fell
now my dwelling is more like a jail
held by the weight stuck in place till i learn to fail
nothing leads to nowhere
hopefully it's not my final tale


hook

got to let it all go to put myself together
the start of the ending and it’s only gaining pressure
live life to die even if it’s just the lessor
growth thru new experience
the only way to measure
Track Name: Take a L
verse

life has started taking it's blows
i don't know if i can hold
lost the only person that i thought i would be turn old with
had to cold quit
and go fix the psyche
can never return after a break so unsightly
everything is turning black and blue
and i'm losing all my interest in the motion to make action move
like i'm slipping back to darker days
when i just sit alone in a room without a word or phrase
a week has past and i don't even notice any change
at least a bath on the daily but he looking strange
lost and tame
feeling forgotten in the austin frame
reposition where to head next
try to fix the past but it's formed into a large ex
- music takes away my every breath
outside of that i seem to fumble underneath own steps
grown but homeless
a vagabond
hopeless
when the cold hits it doesn't seem to let the notes miss
till the end of days
invent a phrase
it's all i got left
living in this lonely building cage
Track Name: Falling Sandcastle
verse

feeling stuck
like i’m out of luck and sinking fast
looking for a better grasp
to hold on to the present past
know i’m not alone but it doesn’t feel like i’m here now
waiting for the minutes and seconds to guide the count down
the final resting place of the person i thought i was
trudge through the muck and mire left behind desire
the fire no longer burning plus i’m feeling tire
want to relax but the memories don’t wash away
guess it’s the cost of living when you lost your place
trying to document behavior but an awkward case
doesn’t get along with many and still odds to face
waking up with a mission than evolve to stay
feeling lost on my decision as i fall and fade
don’t call for ad
i deserve to be a messy waste
numb in fact
keeping reaction under wraps
if i ever make it home i’ll never leave your side detached


hook

i don’t fit in anywhere
and don’t believe in getting there
sinking in a pile of residue and thinning air
holding on isn’t as precious when you're feeling bare
arms reach but remember that nobody cares
Track Name: Right There
verse 1

these days i sit alone
steddy talking to self
looking for a way to function
but i'm dust on the shelf
another forgotten image
now seclusion is felt
no more wealth in the heart
within a margin of fail
if an artist isn't making
then the toxin is felt
ye it's hard to be alone
when i was more than myself
but time pushes on
and no one turning to help
drowning in the anonymity
release from the spell

hook

never letting go
not until the very end
and even in the end i will continue to be your friend


verse 2

back to the beginning
with the chance to try again
in a puddle of my dignity
without a proper friend
volger is the perception of life without her hand
wading thru the everyday is not an easy trend
both sides are opposite
but have a sharpened blend
thru the carcass of my skin
the blade cuts from within
an out pour of every rotten thing i've ever been
and only one person can hope to make it end


hook

never letting go
not until the very end
and even in the end i will continue to be your friend
Track Name: Letting Go Ain't Easy
hook

guess i had enough of trying to make it all work
now i lay alone to relieve the mind hurt
if i only was the way my mind worked
hope to find relief when i'm buried in the dirt

verse

have to say i tried
but guess trying wasn't best
when the thought of my perceived worth was worthless
and hurt goes best with stress
less
the flesh
finds ways to best upset
off text
and full of the regret
though left
can't hold breath
thinking backwards steps
need to move forth
but i'm stuck in a particular gear
the mention of her name in vicinity of ear
has me unclear
which way
i really need to steer
alone daily shaking from the fear
on the outside looking in
like my life's been commandeered
wanted to adhere
but now i'm just another peer
left here
when i wanted be tight near
slight fear
my life ended right here
with mention of a separation slicing nice ears

hook

guess i had enough of trying to make it all work
now i lay alone to relieve the mind hurt
if i only was the way my mind worked
hope to find relief when i'm buried in the dirt
Track Name: Send Me a Sign
verse

i don’t see nothing wrong
with a little dysfunctional mind
enough time
and i could probably find a space to shine
blind to the aspects of matrimony
black and boney
with no sign of women that wanted get to know me
truly alone in this universe
as i search for story
dark and gory
typing out a sentence in my laboratory
fell asleep
not to sure where i woke up
the scenery looks the same but i’m starting to go nuts
write till i upchuck from lack of proper nourishment
shaking from anxiety
quietly i lose it
oh how i wish i could dive into the booze pit
loosen the grip
stop talking to those who just don’t fit
growing old and angry
as my life turns to lose quit
adrift on this earth ship
as the meaning start dip
is this act one or two
cause right now i’m feeling like i’m throw
mincing words to clarify
i’m not sure what to do


hook

you don’t know me
and i don’t know me either
another hard decision
should i go or just be meager
the brainfeeder
a live zombie with demeanor
not good with others
the obvious deceiver
Track Name: What's Real
verse 1

funny how i thought i wouldn’t go for that
feeling like a hopeless hack
kick to the curb
without a notice of no turning back
let my heart detach
overwhelmed but won’t collapse
trying to hold on and not become another open crack
the well is empty
or i can’t seem to find the bottom
it’s dark even when sunlight still shines upon him
felt the cold burn when the hearts feel betrayed
alone and weeping with no place for his head to lay
dark days are back and i don’t care to fix it
something missing
an open book without a proper ending
a loser for sure but i’m fighting to be a winner
the months are cold without a loving place for me to enter
a growing problem and only way i knew to fix
felt like abandon at the height of the relationship
4 years waste away like i just imagined
erased and left to be alone in a dark i couldn’t fathom


hook

no hope for those
who oppose what the heart knows
friend to foe
now the heat is turning heart cold
from the start
even breathing can be harmful
left without a choice when the choice is the wrong view


verse 2

love is just another word with out the meaning to present
lost inside of austin’s space without the reason for my stint
sinking daily but finding ways to rise above
two became a singular than split after infecting love
a kick and shove in a direction away from what was
want to embrace another time though the stars aren’t alining up
she sits alone
i sit alone wishing i was home
in the comfort of her arms with a mind i really know
but i let it go
thinking i was just another poison
she’s better off without
though i maintain reasonable doubt
the lines in the sand as i stand alone
the future what i made it
a broken castle and fractured bones
now i act alone as my better half becomes an unknown
a heart of stone left alone in the forbidden zone
home is where you make it
i’m learning how to build another
have to push further
won’t let life smother


hook

no hope for those
who oppose what the heart knows
friend to foe
now the heat is turning heart cold
from the start
even breathing can be harmful
left without a choice when the choice is the wrong view
Track Name: Layers
verse 1

use to spending my nights on dark stages
with the art that i impart on others
after the finalize
i step aside and watch the vibes
in a dark corner low key keeping to myself
when a vision emerge with a superb presents
eyes connect and leave an imprint in my mind's directory
like she’s injecting her synaptic symmetry
speaking telepathically
grappling at my every actions reach
digging deeper than the usual
how do you do
exploring on a life span
with just noteable eye movement
visually exquisite from the moment of her pivit
paralyzed in this parallel of her universe
want to be the first to earn her worth, attention, heart and soul
while i unfold those other dimensions
no further prevention
as she move for the embrace
perfect cuddle hug
in the darkness of this subtle club
looking like we cut a rug in slow motion
cling tight to nice devotion


hook

caught in her eyes
straight taken by surprise
analyze but understand that we create a the vibe


verse 2

another stage
another night like the rest
finish set
step aside
and who do i collide eyes to see
staring like the time had never left
as breath become calm
trying to keep it cool
but the heart wants to act a fool
find myself being pulled to her vicinity
conversation laced with observation
use of mind for narration
highly intelligent eloquent relevant
looking deep into my hemisphere
providing a state of relevance
ask to vacate and rendezvou at a place for two
i’ll escape with you
to the comfort of your living room
we explore with conversation
develop a way of oscillation
connecting on a hi fidelity
frequency that we can see
best believe i’m intrigued with every whisper
motivation to hold her close and kiss her
in view of the bigger picture


hook

caught in her eyes
straight taken by surprise
analyze but understand that we create a the vibe