Redefining Self

by Out of Place

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1.
verse it’s a fight to carry on like the ending trying to creep a little closer look over my shoulder and notice nothing familiar i feel a bit peculiar life is losing its growth my world crumbles around me like a delicate fold trying to survive when i’m on the level of burly can hold i’m a trader to my senses and it’s starting to show the part of a martyr is old and arguing garbage for gold when i’m barely scraping pennies in my bartering mode turning friends against me quickly without music to flow what is life without another record pressing to mold feeling depression but music is medicine for the soul the only thing i get correct besides upsetting the role feels like i’m ready to go but yet i steady the road though life's working against me i’m pursuing the goal both feet in working motion steady ready for growth life living by the pen keeping melody close hook got to let it all go to put myself together the start of the ending and it’s only gaining pressure live life to die even if it’s just the lessor growth thru new experience the only way to measure verse 2 never knew i had a low point till life knocked me on back a few friends to help but it’s hard to keep a steady track running from the nothing as it changed the world around me trying to breath in deeply though it feels like i’m drowning the day mash together almost like it’s never ending hard to feel and the loneliness has me descending the only way i know to open up is write it down my guiding light is sound without it i wouldn’t be around lost a love but i’m trying to gain from this perspective life now is hectic and hard to be effective i’m nothing special just another lost inside the music trying to find a way to cope stay afloat for another note without a boat it’s hard to see the bigger picture the sandcastle fell now my dwelling is more like a jail held by the weight stuck in place till i learn to fail nothing leads to nowhere hopefully it's not my final tale hook got to let it all go to put myself together the start of the ending and it’s only gaining pressure live life to die even if it’s just the lessor growth thru new experience the only way to measure
2.
Take a L 02:06
verse life has started taking it's blows i don't know if i can hold lost the only person that i thought i would be turn old with had to cold quit and go fix the psyche can never return after a break so unsightly everything is turning black and blue and i'm losing all my interest in the motion to make action move like i'm slipping back to darker days when i just sit alone in a room without a word or phrase a week has past and i don't even notice any change at least a bath on the daily but he looking strange lost and tame feeling forgotten in the austin frame reposition where to head next try to fix the past but it's formed into a large ex - music takes away my every breath outside of that i seem to fumble underneath own steps grown but homeless a vagabond hopeless when the cold hits it doesn't seem to let the notes miss till the end of days invent a phrase it's all i got left living in this lonely building cage
3.
verse feeling stuck like i’m out of luck and sinking fast looking for a better grasp to hold on to the present past know i’m not alone but it doesn’t feel like i’m here now waiting for the minutes and seconds to guide the count down the final resting place of the person i thought i was trudge through the muck and mire left behind desire the fire no longer burning plus i’m feeling tire want to relax but the memories don’t wash away guess it’s the cost of living when you lost your place trying to document behavior but an awkward case doesn’t get along with many and still odds to face waking up with a mission than evolve to stay feeling lost on my decision as i fall and fade don’t call for ad i deserve to be a messy waste numb in fact keeping reaction under wraps if i ever make it home i’ll never leave your side detached hook i don’t fit in anywhere and don’t believe in getting there sinking in a pile of residue and thinning air holding on isn’t as precious when you're feeling bare arms reach but remember that nobody cares
4.
Right There 01:41
verse 1 these days i sit alone steddy talking to self looking for a way to function but i'm dust on the shelf another forgotten image now seclusion is felt no more wealth in the heart within a margin of fail if an artist isn't making then the toxin is felt ye it's hard to be alone when i was more than myself but time pushes on and no one turning to help drowning in the anonymity release from the spell hook never letting go not until the very end and even in the end i will continue to be your friend verse 2 back to the beginning with the chance to try again in a puddle of my dignity without a proper friend volger is the perception of life without her hand wading thru the everyday is not an easy trend both sides are opposite but have a sharpened blend thru the carcass of my skin the blade cuts from within an out pour of every rotten thing i've ever been and only one person can hope to make it end hook never letting go not until the very end and even in the end i will continue to be your friend
5.
hook guess i had enough of trying to make it all work now i lay alone to relieve the mind hurt if i only was the way my mind worked hope to find relief when i'm buried in the dirt verse have to say i tried but guess trying wasn't best when the thought of my perceived worth was worthless and hurt goes best with stress less the flesh finds ways to best upset off text and full of the regret though left can't hold breath thinking backwards steps need to move forth but i'm stuck in a particular gear the mention of her name in vicinity of ear has me unclear which way i really need to steer alone daily shaking from the fear on the outside looking in like my life's been commandeered wanted to adhere but now i'm just another peer left here when i wanted be tight near slight fear my life ended right here with mention of a separation slicing nice ears hook guess i had enough of trying to make it all work now i lay alone to relieve the mind hurt if i only was the way my mind worked hope to find relief when i'm buried in the dirt
6.
verse i don’t see nothing wrong with a little dysfunctional mind enough time and i could probably find a space to shine blind to the aspects of matrimony black and boney with no sign of women that wanted get to know me truly alone in this universe as i search for story dark and gory typing out a sentence in my laboratory fell asleep not to sure where i woke up the scenery looks the same but i’m starting to go nuts write till i upchuck from lack of proper nourishment shaking from anxiety quietly i lose it oh how i wish i could dive into the booze pit loosen the grip stop talking to those who just don’t fit growing old and angry as my life turns to lose quit adrift on this earth ship as the meaning start dip is this act one or two cause right now i’m feeling like i’m throw mincing words to clarify i’m not sure what to do hook you don’t know me and i don’t know me either another hard decision should i go or just be meager the brainfeeder a live zombie with demeanor not good with others the obvious deceiver
7.
What's Real 02:16
verse 1 funny how i thought i wouldn’t go for that feeling like a hopeless hack kick to the curb without a notice of no turning back let my heart detach overwhelmed but won’t collapse trying to hold on and not become another open crack the well is empty or i can’t seem to find the bottom it’s dark even when sunlight still shines upon him felt the cold burn when the hearts feel betrayed alone and weeping with no place for his head to lay dark days are back and i don’t care to fix it something missing an open book without a proper ending a loser for sure but i’m fighting to be a winner the months are cold without a loving place for me to enter a growing problem and only way i knew to fix felt like abandon at the height of the relationship 4 years waste away like i just imagined erased and left to be alone in a dark i couldn’t fathom hook no hope for those who oppose what the heart knows friend to foe now the heat is turning heart cold from the start even breathing can be harmful left without a choice when the choice is the wrong view verse 2 love is just another word with out the meaning to present lost inside of austin’s space without the reason for my stint sinking daily but finding ways to rise above two became a singular than split after infecting love a kick and shove in a direction away from what was want to embrace another time though the stars aren’t alining up she sits alone i sit alone wishing i was home in the comfort of her arms with a mind i really know but i let it go thinking i was just another poison she’s better off without though i maintain reasonable doubt the lines in the sand as i stand alone the future what i made it a broken castle and fractured bones now i act alone as my better half becomes an unknown a heart of stone left alone in the forbidden zone home is where you make it i’m learning how to build another have to push further won’t let life smother hook no hope for those who oppose what the heart knows friend to foe now the heat is turning heart cold from the start even breathing can be harmful left without a choice when the choice is the wrong view
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Layers 02:44
verse 1 use to spending my nights on dark stages with the art that i impart on others after the finalize i step aside and watch the vibes in a dark corner low key keeping to myself when a vision emerge with a superb presents eyes connect and leave an imprint in my mind's directory like she’s injecting her synaptic symmetry speaking telepathically grappling at my every actions reach digging deeper than the usual how do you do exploring on a life span with just noteable eye movement visually exquisite from the moment of her pivit paralyzed in this parallel of her universe want to be the first to earn her worth, attention, heart and soul while i unfold those other dimensions no further prevention as she move for the embrace perfect cuddle hug in the darkness of this subtle club looking like we cut a rug in slow motion cling tight to nice devotion hook caught in her eyes straight taken by surprise analyze but understand that we create a the vibe verse 2 another stage another night like the rest finish set step aside and who do i collide eyes to see staring like the time had never left as breath become calm trying to keep it cool but the heart wants to act a fool find myself being pulled to her vicinity conversation laced with observation use of mind for narration highly intelligent eloquent relevant looking deep into my hemisphere providing a state of relevance ask to vacate and rendezvou at a place for two i’ll escape with you to the comfort of your living room we explore with conversation develop a way of oscillation connecting on a hi fidelity frequency that we can see best believe i’m intrigued with every whisper motivation to hold her close and kiss her in view of the bigger picture hook caught in her eyes straight taken by surprise analyze but understand that we create a the vibe

about

i continue to learn more about myself and the people around me. more and more i find things are not as i perceive them. a relationship build under the guise of secrets can never be a long lasting one. so what is left? what happens now? these are questions i often ask myself and some where in the music lies the answer. i've never been good with concept albums but i believe creating a vibe or mood as a concept is what i do best.
seems as though i always creep back to the lonely place i try so hard to free myself from. this time feel different, like i have a better understanding of what i should do for self. a new portrait unfolds to reveal truths i might have over looked.
Redefining Self deals with old and new relationships while learning how to understand the world around me.

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released April 23, 2018

album mixed & mastered by 247

lyrics by 247

track production by 247

album art by Julia Azarova
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